Lately Nothing Fits

Lately nothing fits

Everything expands and contracts around me

Like a balloon going from hot to cold

Cold to hot

Full to empty

 

Where is the light?

I know it’s hidden there behind the clouds of doubt

Growing roots beneath the surface

the seeds of doubt and the seeds of confidence germinate

side by side

Their roots intermingle and sprout,

both reaching for the light.

 

Whose leaves will roll out  and catch the golden rays?

Whose buds will bloom?

Which will attract the buzzing bees?

To which will the bee fly and pollinate?

Which will shrivel and die and which will drink that light?

 

Lately nothing fits.

Everything is too tight or too loose.

The chair too small.

The bed too hard.

The porridge too hot.

 

The world…too big.

 

I Surrender

Life gets to us all sometimes and I am certainly no exception to the rule.

Instead of working myself to death and worrying about things I can’t control, I’m trying a not so new technique for a few days but it’s something I’m very unaccustomed to…letting go.

Have you ever tried to screw the lid back on a jar or bottle and for some reason, the threads won’t line up and you keep unscrewing it and screwing it back on, only have to repeat this again and again?

Yeah, that’s how my head feels lately in relation to my neck.

I’ve been somewhat disappointed in the performance of my newest novel. However, I’d be an ignorant clod if I didn’t appreciate the fact that I even exist and am able to read, write and breathe at all.

  • I’m grateful to have the opportunity to publish.
  • I’m grateful for those who support me.
  • I’m thankful for those who take time out of their lives to remind me why I do the things I do and why I work so hard.
  • I’m thankful to have a day job I love and enjoy going to each day and that it keeps my lights on and puts food on my table as I pursue this crazy dream.
  • I’m grateful for those who have taken time out of their lives to read anything I have written.
  • I’m thankful for my wonderful family and friends just for being who they are.
  • I accept the fact that as long as I stay focused and work hard, my day will come. 
  • I also accept the fact that the universe is in control and regardless of what I do, this spark will ignite when the time is right. I just need to be patient and wait my turn.

Surrender

 

Lunch Time Rambles and Brain Scrambles – I Know I Know I Know

I know I started a new page today but as always, there are a lot of irons in the fire and I’m doing my best to keep up.

I advertised a contest the other night but I’m going to share it again because I seem to have this knack for posting blogs at all of the WRONG times of the day. So much for my amazing marketing training and experience. Sometimes I still fly by the seat of my pants with a great idea when I should be more strategic in my choices and times to share.

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As of right now, NanoWrimo is a bust. I’ve tried so hard to stay on track but with so much of my free time (what little of it there is after my other obligations) spent on marketing my current novel, The Blue Diamond – The Razor’s Edge, I can’t for the life of me remember why I even agreed to do this damn writing contest. Every time I sit down to write it’s a contest to be able to put words in a row without something distracting me or someone entering the room to tell me something that just can’t wait–like “Hey, what’s for dinner?”

So like, now I have to feed you?! Didn’t you eat yesterday?!

Speaking of yesterday…

Since yesterday I’ve been having an all out battle with these new book ideas when I’m currently ALREADY writing three. This pushy beast won’t leave me alone. I already have the title, a few of the characters and even the damn synopsis in my head and get this…IT’S A CONTEMPORARY, THRILLER, SUSPENSE ROMANCE! 

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Just between us, I may need some serious help or at the very least, an intervention before I just run away somewhere and hide for a year and write all of this out of my head. 80 words a minute just isn’t going to cut it–3 hours a night or not. This just cannot be done because well, the whole “I have a real life too,” thing.

However, The book I have been working on for NanoWrimo is shaping up nicely and I do believe I can finish it by January. This one is a stand alone novel…for now. No promises of any future installments. This all depends of course on how much I love the characters and want them to live on…oh who the hell am I kidding? 

Next, I’d like to congratulate the winner of the Tome Tender – The Blue Diamond $10.00 Amazon gift card give-awayFelicia S. I’ve already sent Felicia her gift card and may she enjoy it!

Next Subject…are you still with me?

Last week I tried several different book marketing sites and the results were pretty okay. No, I couldn’t get past 23K on Amazon and I didn’t sell a boat load of books but for my investment, it didn’t suck.

Here is a link to one of the sites I used and so far, I really do like this one. It’s called AskDavid.

I swear I’m almost done…

I was totally out of my mind this past weekend but I had to carry on and keep on trucking, although I wasted quite a bit of time and energy on self doubt, confusion and anxiety. However, a very dear friend of mine reminded me why I am a writer and that I’m not some hack…I may actually be really good and the time is just around the corner when I can finally live out my dream full time. Sometimes I have to look at this and I feel a little better about my talent and abilities.

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Please do not judge those things by some of my blog posts. Here is where I blow off steam and just let everything hang out and what not.

Oh forget I said that. No matter what I write I WROTE IT. So there!

Thank you and enjoy the rest of your day!

Weekend Update – Book Signing Success – No Rest for the Weary

Yesterday I was blessed to finally have my book signing / pirate party / meet and greet for The Blue Diamond – The Razor’s Edge.

I didn’t expect a huge turnout so I only brought 20 books…I sold and signed them all. 🙂

Here are a few pics from the event. I’ll admit it was fun to dress up and play Ivory for the afternoon and I brought along my crew of cousins to lend a hand…fast forward the fabulous foursome about twenty years..lol

 

Yours Truly

Yours Truly

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Setting up the Room Pirate Style

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The Crew’s eatin’ good today!

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All gone. 🙂

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Major Booty up for grabs!

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This basket was HUGE! Filled with more treasure than you could shake a dagger at!

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Another happy winner!

 

My amazingly supportive family and friends. These women are the definition of soul-mates. Can you figure out who’s who of the crew?

These are what you call FRIENDS.

These are what you call FRIENDS.

If I were ever to run away and become a pirate, these are the first three women I’d sign on as crew members. They are amazing beta readers. They organized this book signing down to the decorations and door prizes. They did set up and clean up and worked as cashiers, sold raffle tickets and handled the security…well, they made me feel secure in knowing they always have my back and support my goals 100%.

After the signing, we let the good times keep on rolling and a few of us headed out for the rest of the evening to hear my brother-in-law’s band, Shaky Magoo. I ran into so many old friends I couldn’t keep up with trying to speak to each one individually but I found myself wrapped up in the arms of so many of my old pals I was warm and fuzzy from head to toe all night. Sorry for the fuzzy pics though. I guess how I was feeling spilled over into my iPhone.

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My favorite dentist with her arm in the air. It was fun seeing her out of the office. She’s a blast!

Then it was up early this morning for breakfast with this cutie and back to the usual grind of grocery shopping and laundry.

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Then, later, a couple of hours with these two cherubs of love and joy.

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Not to sound like a whiner but after my usual week of work, babysitting and daily writer dream pursuits…it’s fair to say I’ve had no rest what-so-ever this weekend and there isn’t any in sight.

Nothing new here!

Thanks for stopping by…see you next time!

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Thanks to my friend Bobby Duncan for taking this very nice photo of me last weekend while I was helping my husband DJ a wedding.

 

 

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#Blog Tour Stop With Author Leigh Michaels – Right or Wrong, I #Write for Me

In keeping with my theme of who we write for, I created this post specifically for Leigh’s blog.

Please hop on over and check it out and when you’re done, stay a bit and check out what she has to say as well!

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Please welcome guest author P.S. Bartlett to my blog; I am thrilled to be a part of her blog tour to promote her newest work.  The Blue Diamond: The Razor’s Edge will be released in two days!  She is an excellent writer who spins a fascinating tale with believable and enjoyable characters.  Check out her work; you won’t be sorry!

Right or Wrong, I Write for Me

by P.S. Bartlett

I’ve been wondering lately about why writers choose to write in a particular genre and tell the kinds of stories they do.

I wonder this because for a long time, I’ve heard, as well as believed, that we write what we want to read and I hope that’s true for all of us. Speaking for myself, that is the absolute truth. However, that doesn’t mean I won’t write YA or contemporary romance or anything else for that matter at some point—if I live long enough. I definitely think it makes writing a whole lot easier when we’re writing about things we care about, dream of or enjoy.

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Please Welcome Author Shannon A. Thompson to My Blog Tonight

I asked Shannon to answer four questions for us and here’s what she had to say:

What are you currently working on?

I’m currently working on the content edit for Death Before Daylight, book 3 of The Timely Death Trilogy. AEC Stellar Publishing, Inc. is expecting to release the final installment of the award-winning paranormal romance in January of 2015, but I’m also hoping to re-release my very first publication, November Snow, in November of 2015.

How does your work differ from others of its genre?

The Timely Death Trilogy is told from two perspectives – Eric and Jessica – so the trilogy gives a voice to the usually mysterious boy. I (generally) avoid love triangles, but trust me when I say you can still have a tense romance without one. And I create different creatures than the norm. My books won’t have vampires or werewolves. Although I do love a good traditional story like that, I strive to bring new creatures out of the literature depths. The Timely Death Trilogy revolves around shades and lights, creatures that will soon be explained, Take Me Tomorrow exposes a clairvoyant drug, and November Snow shows a world filled with bad bloods.

Why do you write what you do?

I’ve always been passionate about writing, but I started writing stories to cope with my night terrors and nightmares. I know that might sound ridiculous, but mine were very extreme in the sense that they almost looked like visions. Even after I woke up, I could see them. As a child, this made it really difficult to differentiate between reality and my dreams, so my mother taught me to deal with it by writing. When she suddenly died, I knew I wanted to write for the rest of my life, and I knew I wanted to help other writers follow the dream. So I do that now.

How does your writing process work?

I talk about this all of the time – how complicated and different a writing process can be, especially from book to book or author to author. Strangely enough, I generally define my writing process as writing a screenplay first, and then, moving into prose overtime, but I got into more detail on my website here: http://shannonathompson.com/2014/06/26/the-beginning-of-my-writing-process/ 

All about Shannon:

Shannon A. Thompson

Shannon A. Thompson is a 23-year-old author, avid reader, and a habitual chatterbox. She was merely 16 when she was first published, and a lot has happened since then. Thompson’s work has appeared in numerous poetry collections and anthologies, including a Norwegian magazine, and her first installment of The Timely Death Trilogy, Minutes Before Sunset, became Goodreads Book of the Month. The sequel, Seconds Before Sunrise, has released, and AEC Stellar Publishing released her latest novel, Take Me Tomorrow, on July 17, 2014.

She graduated from the University of Kansas with a bachelor’s degree in English with an emphasis on creative writing.

Shannon spends her free time writing, but she loves spending time with her father and brother. She also has one black cat named after her favorite actor, Humphrey Bogart.

Connect with Shannon here:

Shannon has also graciously offered a  free eBook of either Minutes Before Sunset or Take Me Tomorrow for the first three people who reblog this post or share it on their blog. If you share, please post the link in the comments so Shannon can contact you.

Thank you for being with us on my blog tonight Shannon! I wish you all the best!